# Reflections on Emotions, Self-Awareness, and Interests

I am unsure of how the last two days have passed without me having the chance to jot down my diary, disrupting my new habit.

My life has been filled with days of horror and some with love, others filled with self-doubt concerning my profession, interests, and passion. These three emotions have been taking control of my mind and I crave for peace of mind above the money I make. This made me to realise that, once you strengthen your emotional control, financial freedom becomes much more achievable.

Though I prefer minimalism and stayed minimalist, my family and loved ones want me to be "normal": present myself as a materialistic person. These days, I am also realizing that I am not an extrovert. For many years, I thought I was an extrovert and a social person. However I find myself enjoying the company of only a few people and its very peaceful and enjoyable than being around many people. I was recollecting many such instances in my life where I felt irritated or not at the right place. I think it was because I was just posing as another person there- "Faking, but not knowing that I was faking: due to lack of self-awareness". Perhaps life experiences are helping me understand my true self.

Self-realization has been challenging for me, as my interests keep changing frequently. There are only very interests of mine that stayed with me: writing, thinking, sleeping and drinking juices. Writing has kept me engaged for the longest time. I have not found it boring or tiring; though I may have been lazy to pen down my thoughts or write something random at times.